So this past Saturday I did that whole graduate-from-college thing. Apparently, it’s some big deal.
But yeah, I did it, I’m happy. I’m also horribly depressed about it all.
On one side, I’m very happy to be done with college, sans this week of finals I have to endure after we’ve walked. I will finally not have any homework, projects, tests, or finals, ever again. That is very happy. I am the second grandchild to actually graduate from college. I’m also only the fourth person in three generations. So, for my family, I am very happy.
However, on the other side, I’m quite depressed about it. I really don’t know what I’m going to do with my life. I know I have to move on to being a nice, responsible adult. I’m ok with that, it’s just that things aren’t progressing as much as I’d like. Job interviews put me in a very up-and-down emotional state. On one hand, I’ve had quite a few interviews, but on the other, none of them have panned out. What makes it worse is that I get to the very last on-site-interview and then I never hear back from them or they just say “no thanks.” So now, none of the jobs I interviewed for want to hire me, school is 100% done in less than a week, no job, my car is broken, I have a huge financial debt that needs to be paid soon, etc. Life just kind of sucks right now and I’m really unsure of what to do about it.
Really, the worst part is the whole job thing. I know I’m qualified to do the work I want to do. I guess other people are just more qualified? I’m not sure. So, yeah, that’s what’s been going on lately.
I’d be writing more, but finals and job searching kind of take a lot of my time. But, schools nearly over, so I should have more time to randomly bable on about stuff.
Oh yeah, and I hope everyone likes the winterized 17th Degree.